New dawn new day new life

Let God transform you inwardly by a complete change of your mind. Then you will be able to know the will of God - what is good and is pleasing to him and is perfect.

Romans 12:2

Amen.

I'll never be able to know the will of God, but I want Him to "give me a new heart and put a new spirit in me" (Ezekiel 36:26). I forwarded the verse to my girls and even though they may not feel so strongly about verses, my prayer is that they will be constantly renewed by God to face the challenges of their world. I know that they are extremely concerned with school results (even though they're getting A1s omg), but I really hope that they may learn to see things beyond that.

 I realised I haven't been spending much time with my girls and it's time to do so.. People have been affirming my leadership but I feel I didn't do enough. I'm pretty upset. Ironically, I'm not good at this but I really want to do this. I guess God makes the weak strong!


LET GO LET GOD!

Looks like...

I'm not okay. I thought I was! Maybe not.

Been spamming a lot of John Mayer for the last few days for no particular reason. It kinda made me feel better? And being around with people helps too.

But sigh pie it's not that easy. Who said it was? I can only constantly repeat Psalms 121 for strength. I will always look up when I'm down :')

Anyway, real tired today. Been cramming LOADS of information and doing work NON STOP from morning till evening. Hell week coming up yo.

I hope you're doing well :x

very much wanted to head home and just lie on my bed, but I have to fulfill my responsibilities here in school..

Why is this so hard? It feels like a break up even though it wasn't a relationship to begin with. 

I kept replaying scenes in my head and somehow there is a tinge of regret. I can't believe these moments are gone. 

I know you're reading this but idc. It's really damn painful for me right now and you are the only person that understands this pain (ironic yeah)

But we'll have to face this alone. 

I can only pray that God's comfort would be sufficient for us. I don't know how long this process will take but I can only hope that it doesn't erode my faith towards relationships. I'm tired.

God, why is it so hard to be happy

Maybe it's my turn to suffer. I already have an answer but I should be patient. I would have loved to talk about it ASAP but I guess I would have to delay gratification and be "punished" for what I've caused.


Sara Bareilles - I choose you

Let the bough break, let it come down crashing
Let the sun fade out to a dark sky
I can't say I'd even notice it was absent
Cause I could live by the light in your eyes

I'll unfold before you
Would have strung together
The very first words
Of a lifelong love letter

Tell the world that we finally got it all right
I choose you
I will become yours and you will become mine
I choose you
I choose you
(Yeah)

There was a time when I would have believed them
If they told me that you could not come true
Just love's illusion
But then you found me and everything changed
And I believe in something again

My whole heart
Will be yours forever
This is a beautiful start
To a lifelong love letter

Tell the world that we finally got it all right
I choose you
I will become yours and you will become mine
I choose you
I choose you

We are not perfect
We'll learn from our mistakes
And as long as it takes
I will prove my love to you

I am not scared of the elements
I am underprepared, but I am willing
And even better
I get to be the other half of you

Tell the world that we finally got it all right
I choose you
I will become yours and you will become mine
I choose you
I choose you