very much wanted to head home and just lie on my bed, but I have to fulfill my responsibilities here in school..

Why is this so hard? It feels like a break up even though it wasn't a relationship to begin with. 

I kept replaying scenes in my head and somehow there is a tinge of regret. I can't believe these moments are gone. 

I know you're reading this but idc. It's really damn painful for me right now and you are the only person that understands this pain (ironic yeah)

But we'll have to face this alone. 

I can only pray that God's comfort would be sufficient for us. I don't know how long this process will take but I can only hope that it doesn't erode my faith towards relationships. I'm tired.

God, why is it so hard to be happy