Cracks

Pride is poison. Each day I reflect about my words, thoughts, and actions in the bathroom. And each day I feel dejected. I'm shocked at what has become of me. I have become so critical, sarcastic, hypocritical, unaccepting, and condescending. I became the person I hated. I don't know since when I became so pessimistic, and it affects how I look at others as well. My perceived perfection of myself dismisses whatever good present in others. I am totally disgusted at my thoughts. So everyday when I come out of the shower, I feel bloody annoyed at myself for entertaining the thoughts that are self-serving and doesn't honour God. I remind myself that I am a sinner in need of God's grace, but that does not seem to make me any better. I need humility in my life.