Phoneless

I bought my charger to school today without bringing my phone. What a genius move.

So SMU's CCA fair was today, proudly termed as "Vivace", means "lively", the school was pretty much buzzing. Except my phone.

Thank God for the morning class I had with Zian, it was a "given" that we walked around together, along with 2 new friends I've made (also from NY!). We took around an hour plus to cruise along the whole basement.

Anyway, I signed up for pretty much stuff, include Voix, Habitat for Humanity, Strategica, Run Team, Tchouk and CF. Giving myself more option than no choice, but too much on the plate ah. I would have to reset my priorities.

I went home and checked my phone. Not much whatsapp, 2 missed calls, 3 messages. Rather decent. I was actually betting with myself if any of my camp groups would call for each other's company during Vivace. Surprisingly (or expectedly), none of them did. I'm not disappointed about this, but I've been thinking if I have made any real friends from the 5 camps I've been to. Sometimes I do get jealous of those groups who are so bonded, joining any event SMU can provide, going out week after week, going for supper etc.. It's like they're having so much fun.

Or are they?... Social media can lie. Just because pictures were posted on fb, insta, twitter doesn't mean they're having the best time of their lives. Or I'm just bitter about it..

Nevertheless, I am looking forward to the time when CCA starts and I can make like-minded friends. CCA was the source of my friendships in JC too. Right now, I really treasure the friendship I share with Jin and Shuangling, especially after meeting SO MANY people that seem fun, enthusiastic and appealing. Our friendship was cultivated on so much tears, blood, fun, eccentricities, you-name-it-we-did-it. I'm likely to be more of a "few close friends rather than many just-friends".

I'm still adapting to uni life, still adapting to class part. However I realise my major flaw is thinking too much. I tend to formulate my ideas and sentence such that it'll suit the taste of the masses, and by that time I do that, my initial thoughts have disappeared and it'll be too late- someone got their hand raised already. In chinese, it'll be called 有话就说，有屁快放。


By the way, I'm quite upset about a friend who took my generosity for granted. How?!