Ugly skinny

Besides taking my heart away, Canada took my appetite as well.

I have been eating less and less since I'm back here in Singapore. It might probably be the stress and depression.

I did not have my favourite Bak Chor Mee since I'm back. I don't even crave for it. Food looks unappealing to me. There is no desire to eat, and I hate the feeling of feeling bloated.

Perhaps I am used to food over there, which is basically my plain, bland cooking. Which is true! I would rather cook my own lunch than dapao oily caifan to class. Which reminds me, I have not visited Food Republic across the street.

My calorie scale is output > input right now. I visited the gym yesterday and ran 4km. Did some core and squats. My fat-burning meter is very high, but the energy I take is very minimal. My friend says I have to stop running, else I become ugly skinny. Either that, I have to eat more! This is the first time someone tells me to stop slimming down (ok la, got shiok a bit). But it's true, my face really slimmed down since USA.

I know I gotta eat more but it's really hard (omg I can't believe I'm saying this)! Most of my pants have become really loose and looks unfitting on me, though I look awesome in dresses, hehe. Skinny feels good, but retching at the sight of food sometimes sucks. Fingers crossed that this is just temporal.