1 Corinthians 7:32

Happy New Year!

I'm honestly not very excited for 2014 initially, but after talking to various people and after praying, I think it will be exciting from summer onwards!

Y1S2 starts tmr, and I am definitely not ready for it. Come to think of it, I will never be ready la. Sem time will be very hectic and gone in a flash, so I must really ponder about what I want to achieve and what are my priorities.

(It's sort of like a new year's resolution? I know people don't believe in it, but I do)
1. Pray for Holy Spirit's presence, everyday
2. FINISH THE BIBLE
3. I must do my best in commitments outside church, as if I'm serving the Lord
4. Bring my cell members out at least 3 times!
5. Read 10 books
6. Errrrrr, try to exercise
7. No relationships

Okay I must elaborate on point 2. It's been in my list for the 3rd consecutive year and I'm quite ashamed to still put it there. But I'm almost there!! About 12 books more which I believe I can finish within Jan/Feb! I'm dragging this way too long.

I was telling bff about how my resolutions seem to revolve around God. She agreed and said she does so too. I wanted to do something for myself, but it seems trivial as compared to the rest of  my resolutions. My life belongs to God and it feels selfish if all I thought about are my own needs. Of course, I believe we should all love ourselves and there is a need to do what we enjoy, but I feel that it is not of utmost importance. I guess when we give our time and effort to God, the enjoyment part will naturally come. It may not be a reward from God, but rather the joy of the Lord. This is the fruits of my effort and is the thing that sustains me (: And that is enough.

When I wrote out point 7, part of me was struggling and making it black-and-white made me obliged to accomplish it. Ironically, I've reached my dad's "approved age of getting into a relationship" but I know that is not what God wants me to get into right now. It's unlike the time when I first got into a relationship, where I rejected what all mentors advised me and continued on my foolish ways. I've always followed where my feelings led me to, but now it's gonna be different! I'm making this decision (okay la, actually not a very very tough decision) with obedience. It is a time for my transformation and molding of spiritual character. There are so many things I want to achieve this year, and many serving areas I'm currently exploring. If I put myself into a relationship, I would have less time for God, with God. And now is not the right time to be distant from Him. I guess along the way, many people will question my decision and rationale for doing so. I can only pray for wisdom from the Lord about my answer, and humbly explain the importance of being single right now (which is embedded in the verse 1 Cor 7:32).

I do sound optimistic but in fact I think I'm quite apprehensive of whatever's coming my way in 1.2. There's A LOT of commitments, and I'm worried about my duties as a student. Perhaps this will be the excruciating time where God molds and shapes me, throws me into the lion's den and test my faith, etc. But my mentor reminded me that this may just be the consequences of the decisions I made for the last few months. Which kinda pains me, because I feel like I'm going through a series of punishment.. Nevertheless, she also encouraged me that I can be (more or less) assured that I'll never make the same mistakes again! Now I've identified my priorities in life, I am convicted to make the right decisions from now on!


Wenhao: So wanna go Funan together?
Cong: You know why we don't want to go? Because got YOU.
(everyone LOLOLOL)
Sam: It's true, Funan has 'U'.

oh god I love my friends.